The things your most afraid of...
Heights. Hands down, my most irrational fear is heights. It is completely debilitating and I hate it, but I can't seem to overcome this phobia. I like to think that it wouldn't stop me from doing things that are amazing, once in a lifetime type experiences, but I am pretty sure I would freak the crap out and miss out on some great stuff because it was happening too high off the ground.
Losing the people I love. This was never something that got me until more recently. A few years ago, the man I was with at the time, lost his mother to Ovarian Cancer. Even then, the enormity of losing a very close loved one was not something I feared. It wasn't until my parents divorce that I started to really fear losing my loved ones. I think I hadn't realized how much I loved what we all had and now that its changed, it just isn't the same. BUT, I still get to see everyone here and there and I am so thankful for that. I can't imagine not having one of them here with us.
Ruining my children. There are plenty of people out there that have been permanently damaged because of something that happened in their childhoods, usually caused by their parents. I hope I can look back and say I raised strong, loving people and I didn't do anything that will hinder them in life. Hmm....
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