Third Trimester Decisions

Here I sit at almost 36 weeks and Little Lady has decided that she would like to stay breech. My doctor hasn't seemed too concerned about it, but she is very laid back about everything. She actually didn't say anything to me about it so I found out when Hubster and I went to get a 3D/4D ultrasound done. The tech that did our ultrasound was AMAZING and tried her hardest to get some good shots. I didn't realize how tough it would be to get a good shot of a breech baby. Although she really did do a good job with what she had to work with, it is disappointing that the pictures were merely okay after spending a good chunk of change to get them done. ( I will add some pictures to this post once I get to a computer that I can load them on. Dillan, being such a gem, got a DVD stuck in our laptop drive.) 

I think the tech could sense my nervousness over baby being breech so late because, before we left, she got down on the floor and showed me several stretches to get baby to turn. I have been doing the stretches she showed me several times a day, along with inverting myself off the side of any couch I am near. I hate that I can't tell what position the baby is in because I don't want to continue doing these stretches and end up turning her back after she moves head down. Hmm.... conundrum. 

So, after talking with my doctor about baby position this past week, we tried to discuss some game plans. If baby doesn't turn on her own, we have the option of trying ECV, external cephalic version. Basically, they would hook me up to monitors and try to turn the baby from the outside by working through my abdomen and uterus. It is supposed to be about 50% successful, give or take with the circumstances. I would then have to be induced directly after that procedure, which would be at about 37 or 38 weeks. The idea that 37 weeks is only next week, is both terrifying and exciting. 

Now, as most women know, induction can result in c-section, especially if your body is seriously not ready and you don't respond well to the induction. 37 or 38 weeks is early and I fear I could end in a c-section even after trying ECV. My other option would be to wait it out and see if she turns on her own by a later date, and if not, we do a c-section anyway. I didn't have a c-section with Dillan and, while I didn't think it would, the idea of going that route scares the hell out of me. Hopefully, we ( me and little lady) can figure this thing out and get her here safe and sound without totally traumatizing me. Fat chance!! 

Marathon Monday

The Boston Marathon represents everything about tradition, perseverance, and accomplishment. Marathon Monday, as most Massachusetts residents know it. Today there were two explosions at/near the finish line of the race. The idea that this day has been scarred forever is sickening. I'm trying to wrap my head around explosions happening where I once stood year after year, just streets away from where my sister stood at that exact time and just across the street from one of my best friends. The fact that so many people are sitting, waiting, for calls from loved ones makes me ache with sadness. Its horrifying how many people can feel so personally attacked by these actions. 

More than that, I am watching this coverage with a heaviness in my heart for my kids. Dillan is obviously fine as we sit here playing trains on the floor, but the world is changing and that scares me for them. The first word in your head these days is terrorist. When I was 3 years old, it was a word that I wouldn't know well until the events of 9-11, a good 13 years later. My son, and now my daughter, will grow up knowing the fear of these acts their entire lives. They will start to do what most of us adults do right now. They will look at events with a different view, with a distorted vision... waiting, wondering when something will happen again. It breaks my heart and it makes me angry. Tell your family and friends you love them, you can't say it enough. 

On a different note, watching the medical personnel and first responders run toward the explosions on this scene coverage makes you realize that while some of humanity can be truly sick and heartless, there will always be some of humanity there to fight that. My prayers are with those who were affected by the events in Boston, MA today.